Bloom and Grow

willoworig“There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”

–Anais Nin

One and a half years ago I took a humungous deep breath and leapt. I wanted so desperately to make changes in my life but up until that moment I had been paralyzed with fear and self-doubt about making those changes. I thought to myself, what if I fail, what if I try and I don’t get the results I want, what if no one notices the changes I will have spent hard time on?

The “what if” game can be endless and unproductive and it feeds the fear monster quite satisfactorily.

I managed to push through those doubts and fears and thought, it is better to try then stay stuck and immobile. So I took it one day at a time and promised myself that each day there would be progress toward the changes. I kept a journal so that I could track my progress if I wanted to but left myself the option not to look too often or at all if I didn’t want to face all the details. I stopped focusing on the minutes that ticked by, I got busy doing busy work to take my mind off of the changes by using time as my ally. Before I knew it 2 months had gone by and in the case of one of the changes being to lose weight I started to notice that my clothes were becoming more loose. I kept going.

In the weeks that followed the beginning changes in my weight I decided to look into having surgery that I had been putting off for many years. I made the appointment to see the surgeon and I  kept the doctor appointment. I told myself that if the surgeon couldn’t soften my fears then I would not go through with it. I told myself that if I really got too scared, again, I could always cancel the surgery. I courageously kept the appointment for the surgery still telling myself that I could walk out of the waiting room at any time, but I didn’t. I kept going.

In the weeks that followed the surgery I noticed more weight had come off and I decided to go back to school. I enrolled in a coaching program that would hopefully teach me how to do the thing I most wanted to do, help others through their fears. I paid for the first class and I told myself that if I don’t feel comfortable or I feel like the material is too far over my comprehension then I could always get my money back and find another way. I loved the class! I was buoyed to keep learning on my own as well as to take more classes. I set up an agenda of completion toward certification. I didn’t back down or out. I kept going.

Have you noticed a pattern yet?

I did one thing and it opened me up to do something more, something new. I started to blossom and grow. It is going on 2 years now since starting to work my way through my list of changes. I have added more to the list and just to let you in on a little secret, I do still get scared and have fear around some of the changes my original changes have opened up for me. I think about all I have accomplished so far and I think about how I will feel if I don’t continue to push through. I don’t want to be that girl anymore that stays stuck in fear. I choose to keep going.

Where is fear showing up for you right this minute?

What can you do to stick your tongue at fear and not let it control you?

What truths are you afraid to face and feel wholeheartedly?

What will it take for you to start to bloom and grow and not stay tight in the bud?

How can I help you push through?

Journey On Coaching is your ally, your support system, your road  map. The journey you are on right now has your unique imprint on it. No one has a journey just like yours. I would be honored to stand by you through whatever is keeping you tight in the bud. What I know about you without a doubt is that when you are ready to bloom and grow you will be the most beautiful creation that ever graced the planet.

Happy New Year, Happy blooming year, Happy self-discovery year, Happy reaching out and up year, Happy You Year.

To reach me:

lisa@journeyoncoaching.com

203-560-3061

www.journeyoncoaching.com

LinkedIn.com/Lisa Zaccagnini

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